Hello
once again Blogger world! I am amazed that my blog is still getting
views. My presence here has been lacking the last couple years.
From all over the world, I hope you enjoy my minute section of
cyberspace. To my old friends, thanks for coming back! To my new
readers, thank you for coming!
A
lot has happened the last couple years. I have been on a downward
spiral for several years now. All of a sudden I've gotten old, and I
feel my age. Kitty and I are caretaking an RV park in Ninilchik,
Alaska. We've been living in a 1973 Holiday Rambler travel trailer.
It's old and its beat up. It used to be a chicken coop. We have a
roof over our heads.
Home Sweet Home! |
I
have a diagnosis finally. It turns out I have epilepsy in my left
frontal lobe which can cause a lot of the cognitive issues I've been
having. I've got peripheral neuropathy and poly neuropathy. What
that means in people terms is I can't feel my feet anymore. I'm
walking around on numb tootsies. Both of my arms need to be sliced
and diced. I'm still waiting on the results of my psych eval. It
doesn't look like Alzheimer's but the neuropsychologist does believe
something is going on. It's going to be interesting to see what she
has to say.
I
can't work anymore. We filed a claim with the Social Security
Administration for disability back in July. We're in limbo now,
still waiting for this to go through. It's tough on both of us.
Kitty followed me down this path. In today's world, anyone else
would have left long ago. She's taken a lot from me, more than any
one person should ever have to take. If it weren't for Kitty making
the decisions she made to get us out of Fairbanks and to get me help,
we never would have survived. Kitty is the only reason we made it.
My brain went to mush and my body stopped cooperating. Like I said,
I got old in a hurry.
The
good news is the medication seems to work. I guess I've been having
petite mal seizures for a few years now and they were getting worse.
My brain was in a fog and not thinking coherently for quite a long
time. It feels better now. It is starting to think again. I hurt
and I moan and I groan constantly but I don't have Alzheimer's! That
is a death sentence. We'll make it.
Other
than survive and go to medical appointments, there's not much to do
in Ninilchik during winter. I'm finally starting to take some
pictures again. These are some recent shots that I've been working
on. Hope you enjoy!
Mount Illiamna |
Recently
we started a serious cold snap. We found that we couldn't keep up
with heating our trailer. It turned into a popsicle at -20f. We
were fortunate to have new friends open their home to us. Faith and
Fred have been a godsend to us! We're not sure how long we'll have
to stay. Next week its supposed to drop to 30 below. The joys of
Alaska!
Remember Deadliest Catch? |
Now
that I'm starting to feel coherent again, I hope to start writing
again. I still want to do the YouTube thing, I just don't feel
comfortable with it. I was surprised to look a couple days back and
see that I have 31 subscribers. I wonder how many of those are FBI
and Secret Service? Hi Chad and Barrett!!!!! I'll vlog again
sometime. For now, I need to write and get my pictures out.
Before
I go, I have an old friend that has gone through a very difficult
time. She put it out there, online for everyone to see. Her
daughter, who I new when she was a very young girl lost her long
difficult battle with cancer. I watched, prayed, and supported my
friends throughout their ordeal. No matter how bad it got, I watched
this young lady battle with style and grace. She even left thinking
of others. This young lady was my inspiration when I started having
problems. When I was ready to throw in the towel, I watched her do
something incredible. It happened several times. She new how her
battle would end yet she kept being a warrior and never gave up.
Jeanette, you didn't know this but Jennifer gave me the courage when
it was all but gone, to actually listen to Kitty and figure out how
to get myself better. She is in a better place, and you will hold
her again. Peace to you and yours my friend.
For Jen |
Thanks
for Reading!
ArcticArtique
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